a short game about saying goodbye
game and art by jem j. sarmiento / artsybarrels
music by david valachovic / adenflorian
content warning: depression, suicide
sorry for the inconsistent art... i did an all-nighter and tried to finish all of the art in one WHOOSH because i got too excited.
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I am 17 years old almost 18. I have dealt with suicidal thoughts since I could remember. I always thought I was a burden and that any misfortune that fell on my mom was my fault. I got sexually abused when was 4 by cousin of my stepdad. Then when I was 15 up until I was 16 by my stepdad who I had know all my life and considered my father. When I finally told my mom, everything that I held in and ignored came out. My thoughts of suicide became so loud that I could not ignore anymore. And at times everything becomes too much for me that I can't function normally. And I wish I could reach out to my mom but she has so much on her plate that have to comfort myself. If I ever have anxiety or a panic attack I calm myself down. But it always comes back without fail. No matter how much I want to end it I remind myself how selfish I am. And although I feel guilt and shame for having those thoughts I have stay for my mom who has been through so much for me. But I unfortunately feel so alone.
It was so beautiful and I has struck a chord within me. I am very thankful for this game.
This is so sad, Im glad there's a good ending
just took a trip through all the options depressing myself just to find a secret "no" option at the end... :(
Hey, why im cryin over this simple game? i even replayin this game more than 5 times and the tears still come
I've been considering suicide for a while. Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you for reminding me people still love me.
Bro, I looked for this type of games, just to motivate me. I started crying for it. It's beautiful.
It's scary how much I was like this just a year ago. Change is hard, really really hard, but it's worth it. It just took a long time to find something worth fighting for.
This story hits hard and gives the message straight to the point. (I almost started tearing up when the sister started going "Ate??") Thank you for making this.
This made me tear up a lot. It makes me sad this happens every single day :(
I'm saddened by the fact that this can happen to anyone, anytime...
i was bout to cry
very well written, cried and all. reminds me of me.. this made me stay alive, thank you
thanks for this story it was nice i know what to say now guess i'll die now...
That last choice, that last choice was really hard. I wished I could have chosen all the options. Nice game! It affected me more than I expected.
This game was what I needed to stay alive tonight. Thank you.
//TW it's scary how much i relate to this,, this is v accurate to my experience last year. i think it's hard to think about but also really important for us to understand depression and ideation in order to make it less taboo and make it more comfortable for everyone to reach out. amazing game,, i loved it
Such a good game! Really well made and lovely art work. It really gave me the feels.
This is a really well written game. Very sad and difficult to grapple with. I think you're onto something here. Keep working at it and you might have a story that might change many lives for the better, preferably without the loss of lives.
This game is good, and i'm depressed.(i made an account because of this.)
i am from the philippines and it seems the creator too,(i guess)
I have a depression since i was 6 years old, i am so depressed and tired of my life.
Keep talking to myself saying "Why do i exist? do i need to live? i'm nothing, i'm useless, i'm helpless, i'm a mistaken child, i don't deserve a family. I just want to die while smiling, my heart hurts so bad every night i cry ti'll my eyes hurt. But this is fine, i want to be tortured." Sometimes i laugh insanely and hurt myself badly, i'm so tired so i promised myself when 3 strike, i kill myself. There's 2 strikes and my end is coming near, i keep giving up because of bully. They judge me for who i am, but they only became my friend because i'm funny. I have a one best friend, who only truly understands me, i am addicted to online games because people who's on online games understands me too like my best friend. I have a one classmate who likes to ruin everything to my life, and i always smile even it hurts. This is true, "The nicest person gets hurt a lot the most." When i was 8 i point a knife into my neck, but my family came so it didn't happen. If i didn't kill myself and i turned 18, i'll start killing people. I'm just wasting my life, promise aren't meant to be broken, so i did the 3 strike. I always sing when i'm alone because they hate when i sing, but sing well. But they do not like me so they don't like anything to me, my parents only cares about my grades. So i don't tell anything about my exams or anything, because when they see it, they're dissapointed and probably ground me. My family keep saying to me "Your nothing but a naive child!" "Your so stupid!" "You don't know nothing in the world!" "your so lazy!" my sister agrees too..."youre so annoying" "i won't ever love you" "buy your own!" "faster! i don't have much time!" "ahaha your ugly ____." i have many more problems in this world, can't fight my depression. "I'm not perfect, they want me to be perfect."
Sadness is always on me
Knifes always in my body
Words In my body
People hate me
i just want to die.
Please don't kill yourself. You never know, something good might be waiting for you in the future. Have you seen a doctor/therapist? I think getting professional help would be good for you.
I didn't get any Doctor/therapist, i'm only 11.. but i think like a mature person.
You can try this service: https://www.7cups.com
But I recommend going to a licensed therapist and talking about this with your parents. If you are unable to talk about this with your parents please go to your local counselor (if you have a school counselor you could try that) or contacting a crisis center. You may refer to this link if ever you feel suicidal again: https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/
You need to take steps to get better. It's ultimately your choice. Please take care of yourself.
I don't want anyone in real life to know this... i'm scared... if my parents knew about this i don't think they'll get worried.. they'll..... ..... ......
s/u/i/c/i/d/e is really high here in the philippines, you didnt get that wrong :((
it's something that i've been going through too, d/e/p/r/e/s/s/i/o/n and what-not
but the possibility of different endings is inevitable, thank you for making this game
This game is probably a real "just @ me next time" to a lot of us, myself included; and the flow of it is hauntingly accurate. Truthfully I had myself a good cry while going through the different story paths. It was pretty refreshing to become so immersed. Glad to see someone speaking on this topic on the gaming scene and I very much thank you for that. :) Keep up the great work I'll definitely be looking forward to seeing what else you put out here.
This hit me hard. Thank you a lot for creating this game.
its extremely short but its still made me cry xD
thank you for making this.. lately I've been having those thoughts and its been really bad, but this helped me out. thank you
I honestly have no words! this is an amazing and inspiring game!
This Is The Best Thing Ive Played This Game Resembles Me Actually Thank You Author For Giving Me Inspiration And Stuff This Stuff Is Deep As Hell Oh Btw Filipino Din Ako Hahahahahhahah Hello Po
This is such a deep message and you did amazingly with how you presented it just a quick tip maybe in the description or something a suicide hotline just in case because this is a way too spread awareness
This game was really special. Super powerful message. I loved it :)
Really like the game; and interesting way to make a game talking about these kind of themes
Thank you so much for this game, I really liked it, and now I'm crying
this was a touching game
wow im really touched....thank you
This game is so powerful, it left me in tears. As a person who has suffered with suicide, and who knows others who have lost the fight, it is very accurate. Thank you so much for bringing awareness to suicide and depression and mental health.
its a game worth the time it shows that its hard to live with things where you just want to do the same but its helping a bit seeing what would be lost after that, i even well thought about doing it but i cant bring myself to it what is good cause i know what i would throw away who would be sad if i go and overall what a mess it would be for anyone to go through. this game shows it a bit thank you for this game