a short game about saying goodbye


game and art by jem j. sarmiento / artsybarrels

music by david valachovic / adenflorian





**SPOILER**




content warning: depression, suicide



sorry for the inconsistent art... i did an all-nighter and tried to finish all of the art in one WHOOSH because i got too excited.


Crisis Centers for Suicide Prevention

StatusReleased
PlatformsHTML5
Release date Jul 06, 2018
Rating
(154)
Authorbarrels
GenreInteractive Fiction
Made withTwine, Aseprite
Tagsdepression, family, Female Protagonist, filipino, minimalistic, suicide, Text based
Average sessionA few minutes
LanguagesEnglish, Tagalog
InputsMouse, Touchscreen

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This was a fantastic experience and has a very strong and accurate portrayal of depression and how daunting it can be. 


I love this.

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Beautiful.

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Wow! This game was truly something! I was thinking that doing all the nice things(Clearing the room etc) Will lead to a happy ending but it was the opposite! This game really gave tears to my eyes. Thanks a lot for making me understand the value of my life again :)

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omfg i absolutly loved this game!!!

i thinks i never cried that much before...

this games just fully devasted me....in a billions pieces

i know what my next visual novel is gonna be about now

it's just a black screen for me  x-x

Oh no. May I know where you're playing it?

A windows 10 laptop, so sorry for the late reply!

What browser exactly? :O

I use a Windows 10 laptop as well and mostly use Brave or Google Chrome.

google chrome as well  :<

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Hi! I tried it on Google Chrome again and it seems to be working?

For reference, I made the game on Twine and it's a HTML file.

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This is so sad play despacito let me go back to 2017

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bro there are filipino words

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It's because Filipino po ako.

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BRUHHHHHHHHHHHH THIS IS SAD SOMEONE HELP ME IM CRYING

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first ever game that made me cry. thank you for making this.

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I GENUINELY BURSTED INTO TEARS 

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please stay hydrated!!!

i loved this because i feel it so deep

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thank you please take care of yourself

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The art was beautiful

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i'm glad you liked it!!

Damn it, im cryin

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make sure to drink water after

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i love this

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thank you ;u;

:)

:D

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I am 17 years old almost 18. I have dealt with suicidal thoughts since I could remember. I always thought I was a burden and that any misfortune that fell on my mom was my fault. I got sexually abused when was 4 by cousin of my stepdad. Then when I was 15 up until I was 16 by my stepdad who I had know all my life and considered my father. When I finally told my mom, everything that I held in and ignored came out. My thoughts of suicide became so loud that I could not ignore anymore. And at times everything becomes too much for me that I can't function normally. And I wish I could reach out to my mom but she has so much on her plate that have to comfort myself. If I ever have anxiety or a panic attack I calm myself down. But it always comes back without fail. No matter how much I want to end it I remind myself how selfish I am. And although I feel guilt and shame for having those thoughts I have stay for my mom who has been through so much for me. But I unfortunately feel so alone.

 It was so beautiful and I has struck a chord within me. I am very thankful for this game.

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Ive had suicidal thoughts for awile now to, crying myself to sleep thinking about where ill end up, never really believed in god, but we all end up somewhere, whether it be a good job, or all over a sidewalk next to a building. But i have things in my life to keep me here, a caring bf and a stable family and life. Well im shaking because this is a sensitive topic for me and 1 of the 3 things that make me cry emotionally, so i hope your life gets better, and you dont end up like me, someone who wants to die, but is to scared to slide the knife.

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This is so sad, Im glad there's a good ending

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;-;

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just took a trip through all the options depressing myself just to find a secret "no" option at the end... :(

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Where?

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oh

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Hey, why im cryin over this simple game? i even replayin this game more than 5 times and the tears still come

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I've been considering suicide for a while. Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you for reminding me people still love me.

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Bro, I looked for this type of games, just to motivate me. I started crying for it. It's beautiful.

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It's scary how much I was like this just a year ago. Change is hard, really really hard, but it's worth it. It just took a long time to find something worth fighting for. 

This story hits hard and gives the message straight to the point. (I almost started tearing up when the sister started going "Ate??") Thank you for making this. 

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This made me tear up a lot. It makes me sad this happens every single day :(

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I'm saddened by the fact that this can happen to anyone, anytime...

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...

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i was bout to cry

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very well written, cried and all. reminds me of me.. this made me stay alive, thank you

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hey are you ok?

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thanks for this story it was nice i know what to say now guess i'll die now...

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Please don't.

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That last choice, that last choice was really hard. I wished I could have chosen all the options. Nice game! It affected me more than I expected.

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This game was what I needed to stay alive tonight. Thank you.

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//TW it's scary how much i relate to this,, this is v accurate to my experience last year. i think it's hard to think about but also really important for us to understand depression and ideation in order to make it less taboo and make it more comfortable for everyone to reach out. amazing game,, i loved it

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Such a good game! Really well made and lovely art work. It really gave me the feels. 

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This is a really well written game.  Very sad and difficult to grapple with.  I think you're onto something here.  Keep working at it and you might have a story that might change many lives for the better, preferably without the loss of lives.

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This game is good, and i'm depressed.(i made an account because of this.)

i am from the philippines and it seems the creator too,(i guess)

I have a depression since i was 6 years old, i am so depressed and tired of my life.

Keep talking to myself saying "Why do i exist? do i need to live? i'm nothing, i'm useless, i'm helpless, i'm a mistaken child, i don't deserve a family. I just want to die while smiling, my heart hurts so bad every night i cry ti'll my eyes hurt. But this is fine, i want to be tortured." Sometimes i  laugh insanely and hurt myself badly, i'm so tired so i promised myself when 3 strike, i kill myself. There's 2 strikes and my end is coming near, i keep giving up because of bully. They judge me for who i am, but they only became my friend because i'm funny. I have a one best friend, who only truly understands me, i am addicted to online games because people who's on online games understands me too like my best friend. I have a one classmate who likes to ruin everything to my life, and i always smile even it hurts. This is true, "The nicest person gets hurt a lot the most." When i was 8 i point a  knife into my neck, but my family came so it didn't happen. If i didn't kill myself and i turned 18, i'll start killing people. I'm just wasting my life, promise aren't meant to be broken, so i did the 3 strike. I always sing when i'm alone because they hate when i sing, but sing well. But they do not like me so they don't like anything to me, my parents only cares about my grades. So i don't tell anything about my exams or anything, because when they see it, they're dissapointed and probably ground me. My family keep saying to me "Your nothing but a naive child!" "Your so stupid!" "You don't know nothing in the world!" "your so lazy!" my sister agrees too..."youre so annoying" "i won't ever love you" "buy your own!" "faster! i don't have much time!" "ahaha your ugly ____." i have many more problems in this world, can't fight my depression. "I'm not perfect, they want me to be perfect."
Sadness is always on me

Knifes always in my body

Words In my body

People hate me

i just want to die.

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Please don't kill yourself. You never know, something good might be waiting for you in the future. Have you seen a doctor/therapist? I think getting professional help would be good for you.

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I didn't get any Doctor/therapist, i'm only 11.. but i think like a mature person.

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You can try this service: https://www.7cups.com

But I recommend going to a licensed therapist and talking about this with your parents. If you are unable to talk about this with your parents please go to your local counselor (if you have a school counselor you could try that) or contacting a crisis center. You may refer to this link if ever you feel suicidal again: https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/

You need to take steps to get better. It's ultimately your choice. Please take care of yourself.

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I don't want anyone in real life to know this... i'm scared...  if my parents knew about this i don't think they'll get worried.. they'll..... ..... ......

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You need someone to talk to about this. Preferably a professional.

I suggest checking this link out: http://www.silakbo.ph/help/

I hope you get help soon. Sorry if I can't personally help you...

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Thx for the link,i needed help but im to scared to talk to real people. I know people care about me, but what if i wasnt here, what would it change. They would cry for awile, then they would cremate me, then store me in a storage room and forget about me. Just another jar of ashes. No one will know us in a couple decades. Im just another one of the suicidal people in the world that we could do without. We all use resources like food, water, money, but why do we try. We all die someday, what is the point of anything. Its like love, you find someone, they break up with you and your sad for awile, but in the end it doesn't matter. The news would read "man found with wrist slit" but would it matter? Im just another person that will be forgotten. Im not important, im not useful, im not... anything. Just a waste of grave yard room...

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s/u/i/c/i/d/e is really high here in the philippines, you didnt get that wrong :((

it's something that i've been going through too, d/e/p/r/e/s/s/i/o/n and what-not

but the possibility of different endings is inevitable, thank you for making this game

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This game is probably a real "just @ me next time" to a lot of us, myself included; and the flow of it is hauntingly accurate. Truthfully I had myself a good cry while going through the different story paths. It was pretty refreshing to become so immersed.  Glad to see someone speaking on this topic on the gaming scene and I very much thank you for that. :) Keep up the great work I'll definitely be looking forward to seeing what else you put out here.

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Thank you so much! I'm glad you liked the game.

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This hit me hard. Thank you a lot for creating this game.

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its extremely short but its still made me cry xD

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