a short game about saying goodbye


game and art by jem j. sarmiento / artsybarrels

music by david valachovic / adenflorian





**SPOILER**




content warning: depression, suicide



sorry for the inconsistent art... i did an all-nighter and tried to finish all of the art in one WHOOSH because i got too excited.


Crisis Centers for Suicide Prevention

StatusReleased
PlatformsHTML5
Release date Jul 06, 2018
Rating
Rated 4.8 out of 5 stars
(279 total ratings)
Authorbarrels
GenreInteractive Fiction
Made withTwine, Aseprite
Tagsdepression, family, Female Protagonist, filipino, minimalistic, suicide, Text based
Average sessionA few minutes
LanguagesEnglish, Tagalog
InputsMouse, Touchscreen

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I really relate to this game. this is really an accurate depiction of how i feel and its really well made

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For every Anak out there: don't say goodbye. I love you.

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When I first played this game, I was in a bad state and thinking about suicide. For some reason, after I got the "bad ending" the game glitched. It wouldn't let me leave fullscreen or go back and that just broke me in a way, because you can't go back. It made me reflect on how I won't ever have a chance to say goodbye to everyone. 

If you're struggling with depression, it gets better. There's people out there who love you, and you're never a burden.

Thank you for didn't say goodbye

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i sobbed playing this, its so utterly heartbreaking.

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This game is so sad. It reminds me of when I had to leave everyone that I knew I weren't going to meet again.

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Its not that often a game can make me cry. This is one of those times.

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So short yet it delivered the same feeling of the moment you've decided to do 'that' with the background music sounding so calm and peaceful like you just woke up to a new day that you know will be good or something after knowing that finally it would finally end, I could tell since I also experienced that same feeling when I attempted it

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most of us have been anak, but some cant say theyve been able to say goodbye

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As a person who has suicide attempts in their past and has been trying to be my better self, I love this game. It gives me a sense of peace. Knowing I should stay in my life I like to sit down at night and play this. I chose the same options. Clean my room, shower, say I'm fine to mom and then call my sister. It makes me feel calm and peaceful. I always smile at the end, it just feels peaceful.

So thank you for making this game. And yes, I'm alright.

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as someone who survived a suicide attempt, and has been through of lot, this game is quite calming for me, it reminds me that no matter what i do i never want to experience the same pain, i sometime feel guilt of what i did, i never wanted my mom to cry so much. i lost a few friends to suicide, and it also reminds me, that i will be able to continue all my best friend's legacy

to anyone who thinks of ever trying to commit suicide, Please dont, its painful, it's tragic for lots. and i bet theres some ppl who care about you, i care about you, even tho i'm an internet stranger, i care about you, i'm proud of you, i'm glad that you woke up. 

Please just know i care and love you, suicide won't solve those annoying problems, you will fight them and solve them, maybe and hopefully time will also help, Yeah therapy may cost you a buck, but there's other stuff you can do, i know i sound dumb saying this, but there's those wholesem discord severs (forgot what theyre called)

your perfect, your alive, your funny, your cool, your kind, your the best.

also, i, as someone who coped by self harm, i would say dont do it, its painful, and also your skin is beautiful and rare, you're rare, cause who knows if we're the only living thing in this universe, if you have self harmed, don't be shy showing those scars to someone who cares and matters to you. i know it may not be easy but after all, your stronger, better, cooler, kinder, and the best, also funny thing i heard and made a kind joke of is the fact our white blood cells are constantly fighting cancer cells and bacteria, they care about you and love you.

and no matter where your from, or what you like and dislike, what gender or personality, queer or straight, you matter.

i love you, i care about you, just remind yourself how lucky you are to be alive, you matter.

written by a internet stranger :D 

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Pretty nice game. Love it. Wanna try that shit out. Thats literally me.

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I've re-visited this game after a year of depression. I actually made it out and survived. There IS hope. Please, live <3
"You decided not to say goodbye today." And I will never will. Thanks for the game.

Unsainted - Slipknot:
"Oh, I'll never kill myself to save my soul
I was gone, but how was I to know?
I didn't come this far to sink so low
I'm finally holding on to letting go"

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I cried at this, because lately and in the past I have considered and nearly attempted such a thing.

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this made me cry. nothing else on this platform has made me cry. good job, i mean it

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short but sad. loved it

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I always come back to this game every one in awhile for no other reason but it makes me cry

🙋‍♂️goodbye.

mood 

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i like your game i'd enjoy it so much thanks for creating it..also im a filipino like you..

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I was in this situation 1 1/2 years ago... with exact the same sequence as seen in this story. I decided not to say goodbye that day. And hopfully never again. Thank you for making this game.

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I'm too dehydrated to cry

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Please stop venting, it makes you guys look like attention seekers.

I'm not trying to offend anyone.

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your serious if your in that situation would you tell yourself that your an attention seeker?

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yesnt

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haha lol

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im sorry if i offended anyone

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That's bullsh*t. Just because I attempted suicide doesn't make me a f*cking attention seeker.

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ok.

bruh what? no one here is trying to seek attention. ofc there are vent comments under this game, its abt suicide, what do you even expect? this is why im scared to get help. because there are so many people like you who label anyone whos going thru something hard an "attention seeker"

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Bruh, the "Anak" took me by surprise. I didn't know this was Filipino-made(?).

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why are people senting suicide or emotional comments in a emotional story

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lol when you do the good ending on the first run 

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So did i

Great Story!!!

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yo chill damn this shit got me fucked bro i actually teared up a but whta the fuck

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Not going to lie, I had a similar situation, not the family part but the train.

Was at a train station thinking, "just jump". but I felt too weak and scared to do it. 

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this is me rightnow. But i don't have the courage to end it. I alway think about my parent when i'm about to jump but also think about death when i'm alone. life is cruel for me. I hate myself for being weak.

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Don’t think you’re weak, I’m sure you’re not. Whatever situation you’ve gone through or are currently facing is enough of a reason to justify that you are strong that you’ve made it this far. I think that, right now, you’re stronger than ever, because you’re fighting against whatever forces may be opposite to you. You may be calling yourself weak because of what you’re currently going through, but as someone who has also gone through tough times where I’ve been in a position like yours, the fight is worth it. Life changes, things change, you’ll change. Give it some time and reach for help when you’re in need of it, and I wish you the best of luck in overcoming these challenges you’re facing.

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the more you get over stuff the easier it gets

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this me in a few years

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no no no no please get help i know i dont know you but trust me everything gets better in time if things get worse keep your head up and just remember things that make you happy. there are places and hotlines to call if you're not feeling "good" or "happy" people would miss you, you might not think it but there are people who would miss you.

i waited it became worse

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I've played this game for a million times, yet it never fails to make me cry.

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3.24=204 seconds

204 X 10000000= 204000000 seconds 

204000000 / 60 = 3400000 minutes

3400000 / 60 ~ 56666 7 hours

56666 7 / 24 ~ 2361 2 days

2361 2 / 365 ~ 6 5 years

This game came out 4 years ago 


You are a lier

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lmao

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i love this game the music the art the mom (the mom is cool) IS SO GOOD

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wow, iv only cried once playing a game, this is my 2 time. it hit hard 

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I don't cry when playing games, but this just hit me like a train (sorry). It feels nice to see how certain people feel projected in a game

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The first time I played I cried my eyes out, you reminded me that there are steps one might have to take before saying goodbye. I forgot that not everyone could just leave and pass. Thank you for this beautiful game.

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This game truly hit me right in the heart. I've never once considered ending it but this game made me cry just imagining it happening. Thank you for making it. I am proud of you.

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I was not expecting this game to affect (effect?) me as much as it did. It's nice to see that there is hope. I really appreciate this game <3

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Affect is correct. That's all, good day!

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thank you !!

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This game hit me harder than I expected, it was mostly because I nearly ended up in the same place.

Don't worry, it was 2-3 years ago, I got the proper therapy and help I needed.

Thank you. I'm not being sarcastic, but thank you.

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I appreciate the other option... it makes me feel that there is hope even if it feels like its too late

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