I'm hoping it brought some hope as well. The game isn't supposed to just end on a hurting note. I hope you gained something positive from it as well. Thank you
Wow! This game was truly something! I was thinking that doing all the nice things(Clearing the room etc) Will lead to a happy ending but it was the opposite! This game really gave tears to my eyes. Thanks a lot for making me understand the value of my life again :)
The gameplay is really simple and the limited choices are deliberate not just because I'm unable to create something more complex but it's also meant to invoke a specific feeling of helplessness.
The game can be depressing but I really do hope that going through it helps people deal with their emotions. Being able to process it and hopefully gain more hope along the way. I'm glad it helped you and I hope you're doing well.
I am 17 years old almost 18. I have dealt with suicidal thoughts since I could remember. I always thought I was a burden and that any misfortune that fell on my mom was my fault. I got sexually abused when was 4 by cousin of my stepdad. Then when I was 15 up until I was 16 by my stepdad who I had know all my life and considered my father. When I finally told my mom, everything that I held in and ignored came out. My thoughts of suicide became so loud that I could not ignore anymore. And at times everything becomes too much for me that I can't function normally. And I wish I could reach out to my mom but she has so much on her plate that have to comfort myself. If I ever have anxiety or a panic attack I calm myself down. But it always comes back without fail. No matter how much I want to end it I remind myself how selfish I am. And although I feel guilt and shame for having those thoughts I have stay for my mom who has been through so much for me. But I unfortunately feel so alone.
It was so beautiful and I has struck a chord within me. I am very thankful for this game.
Ive had suicidal thoughts for awile now to, crying myself to sleep thinking about where ill end up, never really believed in god, but we all end up somewhere, whether it be a good job, or all over a sidewalk next to a building. But i have things in my life to keep me here, a caring bf and a stable family and life. Well im shaking because this is a sensitive topic for me and 1 of the 3 things that make me cry emotionally, so i hope your life gets better, and you dont end up like me, someone who wants to die, but is to scared to slide the knife.
I know it can be painful to live because we may be anchored by external forces. I used to think that the love people gave me is something bad and that they should stop giving me so much love so I can finally get rid of myself.
Honestly, I still suffer from suicidal ideation and it takes me awhile before I can get back up.
But right now, I think I was wrong for convicting the love that people gave me. It's something they so openly gave and yet I kept thinking that it was nothing but a hindrance to my permanent rest and bliss. I still do want some rest but I think I've learned that I don't need to be gone so soon.
There's still a lot of things I want to learn, so many things I want to try to do once I'm better, so many stories I want to know, and so many things I want to create. These things I lose sight of when I'm back in that really dark abyss of self-loathing but time and time again the bonds that I have helped me remember. These bonds aren't exclusive to family and friends as well. There's much media I've consumed that helped on keeping me alive. I'm hoping that the stuff I make is something that can do that as well.
When you're having a hard time, I hope you give yourself more time to appreciate how far you've come and the people you cherish. I hope that you're able to find inner peace or at least find enough love and determination to keep going forward.
I think I know how you feel when it comes to not being able to open up to others knowing that they're already struggling with their own problems. You have to learn how to deal with yourself and whatever's bringing you down. It's hard and it takes a lot of courage to keep going. I hope that you're doing better now and that you're able to say the things you want to say to the people important to you.
Honestly, I think I've come to terms knowing that my depression will never really be gone. I don't think it'll be completely gone for anyone as well. Now it's just a matter of learning how to live with it and finding the things that give me life. Finding things that make me love myself again is something I'm trying my best to do everyday.
A lot of times I can't do this on my own and I am lucky to have friends and family. Not everyone is as fortunate. I hope that this past year you were able to healthily deal with loneliness, love yourself, and even gain more fruitful relationships that help you as a person.
Thank you for playing the game and I wish you the best.
It's scary how much I was like this just a year ago. Change is hard, really really hard, but it's worth it. It just took a long time to find something worth fighting for.
This story hits hard and gives the message straight to the point. (I almost started tearing up when the sister started going "Ate??") Thank you for making this.
//TW it's scary how much i relate to this,, this is v accurate to my experience last year. i think it's hard to think about but also really important for us to understand depression and ideation in order to make it less taboo and make it more comfortable for everyone to reach out. amazing game,, i loved it
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I'm crying
That's so sad... I made a bad choice I think, but I did what I would have done. I want to know what happened before
this is just... wow. i want to see the rest of the story, really good!
That's really sad but it's everything really meaningful and true. Just listen...sometimes can help.
I can't help but want to play it again.....
It's reliable.
almost to reliable
I'm glad that you'd like to play it again but I also hope that you're able to rely on yourself more.
I'm- Oh go- I can't stop the tears. I feel like you've been through my mind. Salamat.
Maraming salamat rin. Alagaan mo sarili mo.
hurts
I'm hoping it brought some hope as well. The game isn't supposed to just end on a hurting note. I hope you gained something positive from it as well. Thank you
This was a fantastic experience and has a very strong and accurate portrayal of depression and how daunting it can be.
I love this.
I don't think I've said this enough but thank you
Beautiful.
I'm glad you thought so
Wow! This game was truly something! I was thinking that doing all the nice things(Clearing the room etc) Will lead to a happy ending but it was the opposite! This game really gave tears to my eyes. Thanks a lot for making me understand the value of my life again :)
The gameplay is really simple and the limited choices are deliberate not just because I'm unable to create something more complex but it's also meant to invoke a specific feeling of helplessness.
The game can be depressing but I really do hope that going through it helps people deal with their emotions. Being able to process it and hopefully gain more hope along the way. I'm glad it helped you and I hope you're doing well.
I hope it also devastated you in a good way. Also, hit me up with that visual novel once it's done :D
it's just a black screen for me x-x
Oh no. May I know where you're playing it?
A windows 10 laptop, so sorry for the late reply!
What browser exactly? :O
I use a Windows 10 laptop as well and mostly use Brave or Google Chrome.
google chrome as well :<
Hi! I tried it on Google Chrome again and it seems to be working?
For reference, I made the game on Twine and it's a HTML file.
This is so sad play despacito let me go back to 2017
2017 is a haze but I felt that
bro there are filipino words
It's because Filipino po ako.
:))
BRUHHHHHHHHHHHH THIS IS SAD SOMEONE HELP ME IM CRYING
Just let it all out. Crying can actually help ;; u ;;
first ever game that made me cry. thank you for making this.
Thank you for taking the time to play it and show your appreciation for the game <3
I GENUINELY BURSTED INTO TEARS
please stay hydrated!!!
i loved this because i feel it so deep
thank you please take care of yourself
The art was beautiful
i'm glad you liked it!!
Damn it, im cryin
make sure to drink water after
i love this
thank you ;u;
:)
:D
I am 17 years old almost 18. I have dealt with suicidal thoughts since I could remember. I always thought I was a burden and that any misfortune that fell on my mom was my fault. I got sexually abused when was 4 by cousin of my stepdad. Then when I was 15 up until I was 16 by my stepdad who I had know all my life and considered my father. When I finally told my mom, everything that I held in and ignored came out. My thoughts of suicide became so loud that I could not ignore anymore. And at times everything becomes too much for me that I can't function normally. And I wish I could reach out to my mom but she has so much on her plate that have to comfort myself. If I ever have anxiety or a panic attack I calm myself down. But it always comes back without fail. No matter how much I want to end it I remind myself how selfish I am. And although I feel guilt and shame for having those thoughts I have stay for my mom who has been through so much for me. But I unfortunately feel so alone.
It was so beautiful and I has struck a chord within me. I am very thankful for this game.
Ive had suicidal thoughts for awile now to, crying myself to sleep thinking about where ill end up, never really believed in god, but we all end up somewhere, whether it be a good job, or all over a sidewalk next to a building. But i have things in my life to keep me here, a caring bf and a stable family and life. Well im shaking because this is a sensitive topic for me and 1 of the 3 things that make me cry emotionally, so i hope your life gets better, and you dont end up like me, someone who wants to die, but is to scared to slide the knife.
I know it can be painful to live because we may be anchored by external forces. I used to think that the love people gave me is something bad and that they should stop giving me so much love so I can finally get rid of myself.
Honestly, I still suffer from suicidal ideation and it takes me awhile before I can get back up.
But right now, I think I was wrong for convicting the love that people gave me. It's something they so openly gave and yet I kept thinking that it was nothing but a hindrance to my permanent rest and bliss. I still do want some rest but I think I've learned that I don't need to be gone so soon.
There's still a lot of things I want to learn, so many things I want to try to do once I'm better, so many stories I want to know, and so many things I want to create. These things I lose sight of when I'm back in that really dark abyss of self-loathing but time and time again the bonds that I have helped me remember. These bonds aren't exclusive to family and friends as well. There's much media I've consumed that helped on keeping me alive. I'm hoping that the stuff I make is something that can do that as well.
When you're having a hard time, I hope you give yourself more time to appreciate how far you've come and the people you cherish. I hope that you're able to find inner peace or at least find enough love and determination to keep going forward.
How are you now?
I think I know how you feel when it comes to not being able to open up to others knowing that they're already struggling with their own problems. You have to learn how to deal with yourself and whatever's bringing you down. It's hard and it takes a lot of courage to keep going. I hope that you're doing better now and that you're able to say the things you want to say to the people important to you.
Honestly, I think I've come to terms knowing that my depression will never really be gone. I don't think it'll be completely gone for anyone as well. Now it's just a matter of learning how to live with it and finding the things that give me life. Finding things that make me love myself again is something I'm trying my best to do everyday.
A lot of times I can't do this on my own and I am lucky to have friends and family. Not everyone is as fortunate. I hope that this past year you were able to healthily deal with loneliness, love yourself, and even gain more fruitful relationships that help you as a person.
Thank you for playing the game and I wish you the best.
This is so sad, Im glad there's a good ending
I hope you get a "good ending" in life as well. Please take care
;-;
;; u ;;
just took a trip through all the options depressing myself just to find a secret "no" option at the end... :(
Where?
oh
Hey, why im cryin over this simple game? i even replayin this game more than 5 times and the tears still come
I've been considering suicide for a while. Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you for reminding me people still love me.
Bro, I looked for this type of games, just to motivate me. I started crying for it. It's beautiful.
It's scary how much I was like this just a year ago. Change is hard, really really hard, but it's worth it. It just took a long time to find something worth fighting for.
This story hits hard and gives the message straight to the point. (I almost started tearing up when the sister started going "Ate??") Thank you for making this.
This made me tear up a lot. It makes me sad this happens every single day :(
I'm saddened by the fact that this can happen to anyone, anytime...
...
i was bout to cry
very well written, cried and all. reminds me of me.. this made me stay alive, thank you
hey are you ok?
thanks for this story it was nice i know what to say now guess i'll die now...
Please don't.
That last choice, that last choice was really hard. I wished I could have chosen all the options. Nice game! It affected me more than I expected.
This game was what I needed to stay alive tonight. Thank you.
//TW it's scary how much i relate to this,, this is v accurate to my experience last year. i think it's hard to think about but also really important for us to understand depression and ideation in order to make it less taboo and make it more comfortable for everyone to reach out. amazing game,, i loved it